Tuesday, September 22, 2009
I read up an interesting article on a Singaporean based forum.It goes like this ..
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David* and his fiancee Meryl* were supposed to get married on 20th September 2009*. They have been dating and finally decided to tie the knot . However, David* incidentally found out that Meryl*, and her ex-boyfriend were still in contact and were meeting each other often. This thus aroused David's* suspicion and he started to trail behind her, which to his dismay, realized that Meryl* was actually meeting her ex-boyfriend to go to a budget hotel on the day before they were supposed to get married. He then proceeded to catch them in the act amidst having sex. "
"How should I console him?"
I took the problem and wrote it into a scenario, which was originally posted by David's* best friend, the best man for the wedding. He is asking for advice if he can help to console David* in any way.
If this happened to you, what would you do?
Personally, I'd feel very betrayed and I'd really be very upset. I won't know how to face up to life and relationships anymore. I hope David* can stay strong and carry on with life and not dwell too much with unfaithful Meryl*.
I feel so sad for him, but I am powerless as a stranger.
Monday, September 21, 2009
Today, I'm gonna spend some time at home.
That is because
i) I have no Moneh.
And because I have no Money, i can't do crap . Maybe I'll just go down later for some basketball-ing if the weather doesn't shit on me.
ii) All of my closer friends either are MIA or busy.
Yep, thats right. But its okay, I should have some time alone and do my own things.
I'd choose to stay at home rather than go out with friends whom I'm not close to, simply because it'll be pretty repetitive(the things we're gonna do) .
iii) Although I'm gradually feeling better about myself, I still don't have the mood to be out and laughing about . Darn, things got pretty boring these days.
Just recently, I re-discovered Daughtry's songs. And I kinda feel that the song genres suit my voice, just singing at the top of my lungs expressing emotions.
I also got addicted to Park Hyo Shin's - Snow Flower.
As well as Steve Perry/Arnel Pineda's - Open Arms
G-Dragon's - Har- har -har -har heartbreakerrrrrruh
Dong Bang's - Evergreen ( Re-addicted)
Check out Park Hyo Shin's hairstyle.
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Today is Sunday, and I'm going to attend music class.
I hope everything can proceed smoothly.
Life and its creator can be annoying at times, playing jokes with you.
I guess all these just makes me stronger.
Ever since that day, my emotions have been majorly negative.
I don't know how to face myself,
I want to run away from the problem.
but I'll soon face it, like a man.
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想太多
你笑著說 他是朋友
但你眼中太溫柔
我的不安 那麼沉重
只有你不懂
他霸佔了你的心中
屬於我的角落
所以你說 我們 不是你和我
是我想太多 你總這樣說
但你卻沒有 真的心疼我
是我想太多 我也這樣說
這是唯一能 安慰我的理由
我想我沒有 錯怪了什麼 雖然你不說
或許錯在我 太晚我才懂 愛了你太多
是我想太多 你總這樣說
但你卻沒有 真的心疼我
是我想太多 我也這樣說
這是唯一能 安慰我的理由
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Speaks to me, speaks to my emotions, speaks to my life.
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Today, I went for a walk alone.
I needed some time alone, some time to let loose.
Its been such a long time, since I left the loud lifestyle.
I've always hated loneliness, I hate even the likes of it.
But I thank loneliness for finding time for me to think about stuff.
I have so much emotions I want to express, so many feelings of being upset, being insignificant.
There are days when I wake up and I run through so many thoughts,
It feels really painful,
but I still have to carry on with life.
I have to put my emotions aside and be really cheerful.
But its really tiring, because no one truly understands.
I'm tired of always giving.
I am always the one, making the effort to do things when others just rely on me.
I need a shoulder to rely on.
I need a shoulder to cry on.
I need someone to talk to me, and make me laugh.
I need someone who really cares
Someone to understand who I am.
I try my best, to make the best out of every outing, out of every conversation.
But I need to rest.
I need someone to carry my burdens, and make my day.
Its just one of the days you feel like going to the beach to scream your lungs out.
I ask myself, who is there to make an effort, for my benefit and to make me feel better?
To give to others is considered a blessing, but I cannot give all the time.
I am so exhausted....
Saturday, July 11, 2009
I remember in the past when I used to be a Christian, I used to be someone who was proud of what I had believed in. It was because I was told, "Christianity is perfect. Christianity is the only one correct religion and our God is and will always be the only one God."
I was told that God is all loving, all forgiving and gives love
unconditionally.I was told that God is miraculous and in times of need, He will be there to help you.
Ask God, He will give you if what you ask for is necessary.
I used to be in a community which gave me a very good impression. I thought everybody there was loving, humble and real. I believed in these things I was told. I was told City Harvest is not a good church, because the people don't dress modestly. They were skimpily. I was told that New Creation church is a nonsensical church because they do not believe in tongues.
When I was a proud Christian, I remember that I had hurt a lot of people.
I saw a quote once which said something like ,"Christianity means accepting that we are weak as humans, and need God. Christianity means telling God that I want to be humble because I am worth nothing.
I said, " I totally agree. "
Then I went back to being a proud Christian, going around demonizing other religions.
"You stupid people, pray to statue. You stupid people, only know how to wear turban."
It was even as stupid to follow in sylvester's footsteps to point downwards at the Guan Yu statue and tell God to send lightning to strike it.
But all these are in the past now. Nobody told me the down sides to things about Christianity. Nobody told me about the flaws. I was told God kills because of their sins. I didn't want to question further because I told myself that I have
faith in God and having faith means believing without seeing. The thing is, my problem is entirely not with the religion. But the patterns I follow in church. I was influenced to make decisions as I was told to, and I thought I was right. I thought, I will never leave God and YI. I said, " YI is the best church in the world," without going to other churches. I condemned other churches because they believed different things.
Anyone from YI, you say that is not the way God or the church is.
But this was what I learnt. I only did this because I was taught to.
However, I must admit that it is not entirely everyone Else's fault. I am also to blame. For not using my brains to question, for not being sensitive enough.
If this means anything at all,
I apologize to the people I have hurt and said to you anything insensitive.
I went to Sylvester's blog and I admit, I agree with certain points. I said honestly what was my feelings on the tagboard, but I got condemned by a fellow Christian that I have no faith.
Let me ask Christians. Did God teach you to retaliate to every insults?
YI taught WWJD, What would Jesus Do.
Did Jesus, along the way to cruxifiction, being spat upon and being insulted retaliate in any way? When He was cruxified, did he condemn the soldiers that they had no faith?
He even prayed for them.
Can you at least do what you preach? I am not challenging your Christianity, but I just want logical explainations .
I am not condemning your religion, but I just want you to prove me otherwise, that Christianity is right. If you cannot even do that, don't tell me to believe that what you believe is right.
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Yesterday, I went to Lido with stupid takanori to watch a new movie.
ICE AGE !
It was funny but not very very funny, to me. Its not those kind of laugh out loud comedy but rather a light hearted film to cheer you up. It was enjoyable and I'd rate it an overall of 7/10.
As I am not a cartoon movie fan, this flick has rated very well already.
I remember in the past, Benedict made our clique watch bee movie at the cinema.
I tell you, it was the most time wasting film, not even worth being made a movie or be shown in the cinemas. Bee movie in short, was a failure and it not only wasted my time, it made me avoid all kinds of cartoon movies in the cinema.
Simon Pegg and his character BUCK was my favourite.
His loony yet fun to be with character has made the whole film a lot more enjoyable.
With his somewhat sarcastic humor, this guy made my day.
My aunt came from from HK! She bought me some clothes.
I also thought of an interesting question.
Are you a trendsetter or a follower?
Do you follow the crowd or do you have your own opinion?
A trendsetter thinks for himself what is best, while facing the fact that he might be ridiculed because his opinions differ from others and may seem weird from other people's point of view.
A follower does not dare to voice out any objections while following majority opinions. Very common bandwagons who simply think that if most people think this is right, there has to be some reason that people have such beliefs. However, although he might blend into the crowd, he will not stand out as an individual.
What do you think?
current celebrity crush :
Dorky leader Taeng - Kim Tae Yeon!
Saturday, July 4, 2009
How many things in life have you done and truly regret? I bet you cannot finish counting even with all your fingers and toes. I was on msn with claudia last night until like 1 or 2. And we reminiscent about our pasts and what we were like. And I recalled many many things.
The days when I used to be so engrossed in computer gaming, where I met many people.
Haha, I honestly don't know whether I should be glad that I meet these nice people, or should I lament about how much time I've actually wasted. I know, I've always been the jerk. So if I was insensitive anyhow, you know me.
Recently, I've been very addicted to songs by Aerosmith and Bon Jovi. Old time classics !
I want to practice on these songs . The crowd would be familiar with these songs.
shot through the heart, and your to blame .
you give love, a bad name !
I wanna be a rocker ! Current celebrity crush :
Kim Tae-hee
I'm melted away by her sweet, charming smile.
