Friday, July 25, 2008 (2:56:00 PM)

In this reality program , it actually talks about very shocking and thought provoking issues . This is what I find most amusing . A girl came into this show saying shes traumatized over PICKLES , which in other words , Cucumber . I'd understand if it was pickles because maybe she had a sick father or stuff but crap this woman is afraid of BALLOONS . balloons are like the most awesome thing I've ever owned during my childhood and shes afraid of it .From the sight of it to the way it floats she is scared , to death literally . Well , heres a nice mv by Dong Bang Shin Ki titled "Balloons" .

Saturday, July 19, 2008 (10:40:00 AM)

Now and Forever - Me

This song is the song I sang for my arts fest . The sound quality sucks because I used a phone recorder hahahas . Anyways , this is only the first rehearsal and also the first time i sang this song . So i couldn't really catch the timing and missed some parts . If you hear someone singing along with me at the later parts , check this out "its mr. Leung ."
Guess what , I'm back to basketball again . This time , for good I hope .Been hanging out with daniel and gang playing basketball and stuff . The team has improved like .. a lot . Jingguang daniel and chinleh are accurate at shots , gucci can "eat" and grab rebounds , Jeremy has gotten better at attacks , Linus now dare to shoot more . Sometimes I lose to chinleh and linus at grabbing rebounds . Looks like I need to practice a lot more and build up my physique .
Oh , and by the way , my ycgt path isn't over yet , unfortunately .
I've received a few tasks by teachers asking me to perform for national day and teacher's day .For national day , I've got to perform 4 songs on national day with the other 3 got talents and I've to perform for teacher's day alone but fret not , I've got Lokmun to accompany me . So Lokmun fans have something to look forward to again . We've decided to sing More than Words . Westlife has covered this song before so you can look up this song on imeem . Sides , I'm going to skip the camp and attend church service because I know whats more important . especially at this critical stage .

Oh and for the song , constructive criticism please and please , don't bash me . I might not be well to your liking but if you've got some comments that is for making me feel bad , It'll be deleted .

I've also decided to let God decide my future and trust all unto Him . I want to find the love I had for Him . These few days without God , I feel empty and my heart aches all the time . Because I tried to use something else to fill my vacuum in my heart , I failed .

LASTLY
ATTENTION : Looking for a able to play guitarist , basist , keyboardist and a drummer . Must be committed to the band and practice often for songs we're going to jam on . For more info , leave a tag or contact me . Only applies to Singaporeans or foreigners living in Singapore permanantly :D

Wednesday, July 16, 2008 (7:25:00 PM)

well i suppose nobody can comprehend how heavy and deep I feel now ...

before reading this , I'd like to say that these are all words from my heart and how I'm really feeling right now . Maybe you've seen this in the television dramas before . I never thought this would happen to me .. please , just look at me for now ..

recently , I've grew fond of this very special somebody . How I wished and prayed , but I knew what I had in mind . The song that is playing right now , don't stop it . Its about somebody who once fell in love with a girl . But he missed it , his opportunities . Now , they've lost contact and reminiscing about his love , thats the feeling I am feeling now . The spilled coffee will be dried up . Tears will grow stale . I know what I dream and aspire to be . The feeling of wanting to stand by you when you need me , to share the joy and the tears . This hunger has took my love for God away . You have become an idol for me . But if things were different , I wouldn't mind at all . But God didn't let things happen this way ; at least .. not for me .

Seeing you smile makes me grin inevitably . Hearing that you did well , I prayed all the more harder . Nothing else mattered to me . The anguish nights after nights with thoughts . I couldn't get to sleep . Sometimes , your the reason I'm late . Sometimes , your the reason I skip my meals because I have no appetite . To put it simply , I long to be someone who you can trust and lean on . But what I have in mind , the thoughts that made me sleepless nights after nights are far more profound than this. Who , of my age would be able to understand this ? Only those who had been through this would know . My dream was to go to Korea after my poly diploma and army . It was my dream , my ambition . I used to not have any until I sought after it and found my buried talents . My dream , was to go to Korea and learn music there and become a member of a popular boy band someday . But the thoughts in my mind were about making a certain decision . One that would compromise my dream , my all . I wanted to tell you how I feel , but I can't . Why do I start a relationship ? I start one with someone whom I love because I am preparing to marry her . If I had a choice , I'd rather compromise my dream and my all just to stand by you . But I cannot . I can never be so selfish . I know that what I earn can never give you a luxurious life , one that you can enjoy . If I had another chance I would strive so hard just to do well enough to at least get a well paying job to support our family . But I am not good enough . I'd rather see you be happy with another man than making you toll day and night with me and suffer . I'd be making big bucks if I were a popular singer . But you must have either forgotten about me or got married by then . I can't bring you there with me because it is an unfamiliar land to you . Even if you didn't mind . I can't be as selfish as to ditch you for my own ambition if I were to go after you now . I can't bear to ditch you , I can't . I'd be willing to marry you 70 years old , if I had the chance . But I know , its impossible . I'd be praying .

after all , looks like i'm not that godly after all ..

i'm sorry God .

please tell me little lie
loud enough that i can hear you ..

Sunday, July 13, 2008 (11:54:00 AM)

Okay toodey imma post about art fest and what happened to me hahahs . On friday itself , I was super duper tired . Coz the night before had a few hours of rehearsal . I still went and joined the councilors for mass dance until so hiong .On the concert day couldn't get any rest coz AVT got ppl jam elec guitar like siao . In the night xinyi hilly sylvester & weiwei came to support me .Thanks a a lot really .I made quite a lot of friends during this whole event and im glad.People like those fun mass dance councillors and people who encouraged me along the way . And the people who did banners and cheered for me , thanks . During the concert I did 2 major mistakes la .. BOTH AT CLIMAX .For now and forever - Richard Marx I tried to clear my throat because of the phlegm . But end up i couldn't re-adjust and went off tune . For Just once - James Ingram I forgot my lyrics at the climax almost to the end . But i remembered at last and pulled my performance back .

I'm actually quite glad that lok mun won . Because I think he really did a lot better than me and deserved the champion . Well maybe i'll try again some other time with a band . Then when i got home , I've got durian as reward ! The bottomline is I've got this rlly rlly huge ulcer now .. sigh . But nevermind ! hahahs

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After turning into a dead webpage, I shall change all the brightly coloured, hearty blogskin to a vocally talented skin, Adam Glambert. I ain't gay, but I adore what he does to a song, and brings it to a whole new level. I'm currently a sec5 student , residing in Singapore. I am ATHEIST, but I do not condemn all religions. My principle is, If I do no harm unto others, and love other people, I deserve as much as anyone else to be let into heaven. ♥ :Jaejoong, Adam Lambert, Miyavi, Takanori, PARK HYO SHIN, Steven Tyler, Angela Glasgow, Junsu
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